Haven’t had time to blog because it’s been a terribly, terribly busy past week - only other colleague is having in-camp training. But this incident set me thinking.
My sister asked this morning if I had read the latest issue of TIME.

"It’s so shocking loh - do you know that Mother Theresa actually did not sense God’s presence for 50 years ?"
I told her I wasn’t surprised (and this has nothing to do with my bias against Catholics). I explained that while many Christians today make it sound as if God speaks to us in dramatic, over-the-top ways, the reality (in my humble opinion) is that there will be periods of seeming silence. It’s not that God is not there, but that we just don’t sense or hear him in the dramatic, over-the-top way that we wish to (or are told that we should expect to).
True, the Bible records how God spoke to Abraham (then Abram) to leave his hometown to go to the future land of Israel, promises him in a vision that he will have an heir, and even appears to him personally to give the covenant of circumcision, and confirm the promise of an heir and discuss the future of Sodom and Gomorrah. True, the Bible records other dramatic incidents like God appearing to Moses in the burning bush. But Christians forget that at the first and second time that God spoke to Moses, he was 75 years and (probably) 99 years old respectively - that’s almost a good 25 years. These were, I believe, pretty much years of silence. Of Abraham worshipping God through regular sacrifices at the altar, but of seeming divine silence and the continued barreness of his wife Sarah. Why else would Abraham, when God finally appears to him again after 25 years, laugh and say to himself : "Will a son be born to a man a hundred years old ? Will Sarah bear a child at the age of ninety ?" (Genesis 17 : 17).
How about Moses ? He languished in the desert for a good 40 years before God finally appeared to him in a burning bush !
We forget that there are intervening years that the Bible often does not record; it cannot, for the Bible would otherwise be too long and boring ("and Abraham woke up, ate his breakfast, fed his sheep, had lunch, watered his camels, had dinner, and went to sleep. Thus passed the second day of Abraham’s journey to Canaan"). And that in these intervening years, God often appeared silent to the protagonist - if there was another dramatic incident this would probably have been recorded in the Bible. I therefore deduce from the lack of a record, a seeming silence.
But what encourages me is that God never forgets us, or His promises to us. The delay in God’s answer may seem long by human standards, but is in fact perfectly timed for our greater benefit and His glory (ie. so that it is clear that what we have was not attained through human ability). For example, the birth of Issac would be a lesser miracle and would hardly be an encouragement to our faith, had it not occurred when Abraham and Sarah were well past child-bearing age. Similarly, the exodus would seem less of a miracle, if it had been led by Moses the youthful and brash prince of Egypt, instead of Moses the aged shepherd and political has-been.
What also encourages me (as I’ve said many times before) is that the Bible also records how spiritual giants also had to struggle with God’s seeming silence. Jeremiah accuses God of betraying him (Jeremiah 20). Habbakuk complains against God’s failure to deliver them from injustice. Even Jesus, quoting King David, cries out that God had forsaken Him (Matthew 25 : 46, quoting Psalms 22 : 1).
Many Christians today - especially those who worship at more exuberant churches - make it appear as if something is seriously wrong with spiritual life if we don’t "sense" or "hear" God in some mystical way daily. I would like to profer my humble opinion that God does not interact with everyone in that way all of the time. Anyone who wants to hear from God everyday should begin by reading the Bible everyday - God’s letter lovingly written for all Christians - rather than chase after mystical experiences and spiritual highs.
Does God speak to Christians today ? Yes, first and foremost through the Scriptures.
——- Postscript ——-
Intrigued by my sister’s comments, I read the TIME article on Mother Theresa’s "Crisis of Faith". I do not think that her private notes (which discloses her struggle with God’s distance or absence) will damage the Christian / Catholic faith as some atheists would hope to believe. Rather, it reminds us of what we already know through the Bible - that there may be times of dryness and doubt in spiritual life, and that it is possible to remain faithful in such times.
Her notes (which also discloses her deeply mediative life) will also serve as an interesting foil to the exuberant (but perhaps unthinking) faith of many of the Christians caught on film in Jesus Camp, which according to movie reviews does not cast Christians in the most flattering light. An example of zeal with knowledge, a reminder that "it is not good to have zeal without knowledge, nor to be hasty and miss the way" (Proverbs 19:2).